Your First Love

Every girl goes through some sort of devastating heartbreak throughout their life whether that is their go to make-up item discontinuing, that one athlete they admire retires, their team loses the big game, a favorite show ends its last season or a stupid boy breaks your heart. I have often thought why did I have to go through certain situations that brought me so much pain and heartache.

I dated a guy throughout high school for a little over four and a half years and boy was I in love! We experienced many major life milestones togethers such as drivers license, first jobs, graduations, etc. We had started to make plans for the future such as careers, marriage and children. I knew this was the guy I was going to marry one day!

Unfortunately I spent so much of my time getting close to this earthly love that I forgot about the ultimate true love that mattered the most. I was so fascinated by my “first love” that I lost sight on who really was my first true love and that is Jesus Christ. Don’t get me wrong an earthly love can be so incredible especially because God intended for it to be that way. We just have to make sure we do not lose sight of Christ when looking for that earthly love and do not have it distract you from God but rather draw you closer to Him.

Going through my first real heartbreak, I thought I would not make it through. My life was over. I thought I had no future and no purpose. Ladies, I am here to tell you that it does get better. A verse that I had to keep reminding myself over and over and over was Proverbs 3:5-6, “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” At the time I kept thinking how is this possibly going to get any better?! How is God going to direct my path from here when I had my whole future planned ahead of me? … Right then I realized where I was going wrong. I had this grand idea for my life and I did not seek God’s guidance and blessing for it.

Letting go of what you want is always a tough lesson in life. I knew in order to completely let go I had to surrender my life and my dreams to The Lord. I prayed and said “Lord, I don’t see it clearly now but I know you will give me peace and understanding in your timing. Please give me guidance and patience to see Your Will for my life. In Jesus name, amen.”

I just want to remind you to never lose hope. Our God is so beyond faithful to us and is the ultimate promise keeper.

With Love, Laurin

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